My life has been crazy ever since I was eleven, at about this time I started having major anxiety issues that not only effected me mentally but physically as it would daily make my stomach hurt, I was diagnosed with IBS ( irritable bowl syndrome) and then doctors thought I had an ulcer, there were a lot of things they tried to diagnose me with but when it comes down to it, the situations where my stomach hurt are in stressful situations, whether it be excitement or depression. A lot of this stress has come from my home life and school life.

First off, my mom and I have never really gotten along, she never let me pick out my own clothes, she would pester me about thing constantly, although I agree I need to clean my room, I disagree that its necessary to mention it 4 times while im at school and another two times while I am doing, but thats just an example of all of the stress she brings upon not only myself but my other family members. Secondly, Through out 7th to 10th grade I was bullied in school, mostly verbal but I have more than 10 incidents where I was tripped, once while being on crutches, pushed into lockers, the usual stuff I would say, this sent me into a depression that last until i was about 15 or 16, I've had 22 suicide attempts, ranging from self abuse such as cutting, trying to cause physical trauma and taking pills and alcohol heavily.

To say the least, I think I have gone through a lot for myself and I have been just so overwhelmed and I havent gotten a single break from it all. Enough of the stressful information, Let me explain who I am.

I am what I consider to be an intelligent person, I like to have stimulating debate whether it be about science or sociology, cinema, anything: I like to talk and share my opinions. I have a somewhat photographic memory, great eyesight, I did not graduate high school because traditional schooling failed me, and for the most part didn't understand my needs until it was too late for me to get back the credits I need in time to graduate. So I went onto Online school, that was easier for me but I couldn't handle the fact that it wasn't physically in my hands, eventually I got to the point where I dropped out of the school I was in and got my GED. My hobbies consist of a lot of Art; Photography, cinematography, some drawing, some graphic design and Media editing such as Photoshop and video editing. I am looking to get into glass blowing, as well as getting further into my career as a photographer and cinematographer.

There are a lot of things I want and want to do with my life and at this point in time I do not have the money or the mental capacity to sustain a normal life, my parents are falling apart financially and honestly I need to get away from them because they are causing a lot of my stress. I have never had a job other than working with my dad because most jobs I wouldn't be able to handle due to my stomach issues, I am though looking to be employed, I don't just want to be lazy and sit around.

There are many other things I am looking to do with my life but my fingers are honestly starting to hurt.

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